My older daughter brought home more girl drama, and inwardly I rolled my eyes.
My girls wanted to talk to me, and I failed to listen.
One of them simply wanted to sit on my lap, and I was too busy.
They argued with each other, and I was too frustrated to teach them how to settle their differences.
So often, I fail as a parent. I say the wrong thing, have the wrong priorities and let my own emotions and desires get in the way of being a good parent.
There are days when I would give a whole lot of money simply to be able to go to the bathroom without someone following me there. I long for just five minutes of quiet and solitude. I don't want to solve any more problems, come up with something creative to do or listen to one more story. These are the moments when I fail. These are the moments when I'm less than what my children need me to be.
I'm not perfect. I can't be. But I can be enough for my kids. Despite my failures, God didn't make a mistake when He made me the mom of my kids. He knew that my kids would need me, not the neighbor kids' mom, not the PTO mom at school who always seems to have it all together. My kids need me in all my messy imperfection. It doesn't matter that I fail. It doesn't matter that I don't always have the right answer. It doesn't matter that I lose my temper.
None of those are good things, but they don't make me a bad parent. They make me human. And they give God room to work. If I could do this parenting thing all by myself, I wouldn't need God. I wouldn't need to rely on His strength and His wisdom. I could just figure it all out on my own.
Yet, I do need God. I can't parent these girls well on my own. Too often I fail. Yet, God tells us “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" (2 Corinthians 12:9). It's when I fail that God steps in. He helps me be enough for my kids.
When I get angry, God makes peace. When I'm impatient, God is patient. When I'm too busy, God makes time. When I'm frustrated, God is wise.
My kids know I'm not perfect. They see me make mistakes. But they love me anyway. They still think I'm enough for them. And when I rely on God to be strong in my weaknesses, I know that, with His help, I am enough.
Ask God today to make you strong in your weaknesses and to help you be enough for your kids.
Linking up today with Raising Mighty Arrows.