I want to be able to do it all.
I want to have cookies after school and homework without tears.
I want to have a successful blog and write a book.
I want to be a great writing teacher who inspires kids.
I want to make nutritious dinners and have fun family nights.
I want to be a great wife who makes her husband feel valued and loved.
The reality is, though, that I don't succeed at these things even half the time.
Many days, my kids are lucky if there's food in the house to have for a snack and homework time often degenerates into frustration and tears.
My poor blog can go days, sometimes a week, without my attention, and that book is currently sitting in my head.
On the days that I teach, I'm sometimes lucky to have a lesson plan, and I'm often less than inspiring.
Nutritious dinners are, at times, found in the apples included in a McDonald's happy meal. Fun family nights consist of telling jokes in the car on the way to soccer or hockey practice.
My husband and I can go days without having a decent chance to have a conversation of more than two sentences without being interrupted. We can be ships passing in the night as we go separate ways to take children where they need to be.
This is my life. This is the life where I often fail as much as I succeed. This is the life where I don't get to be supermom. This is the life where many days I simply put one foot in front of the other to make it through the day.
And, yet, I find I don't need to be supermom. I don't need to be perfect. I don't need to be any more than what my kids and husband need. Because they don't need perfection. They don't always need a mom or wife that has all the answers, makes the perfect dinner, writes books and conquers homework without issue.
What they need is a mom and wife who loves them. What they need is a mom and wife who is doing her best to follow Jesus. What they need is not perfection but a mom and wife whose weaknesses are used by a gracious, loving God to guide and love them. What they need is for me to fall at the feet of Jesus and let Him build me up to be the mom and wife that meets their needs.