My older daughter leaves tomorrow morning to spend a week in Ecuador on a mission trip. I'm excited for her to go, but this trip that we've been planning for nine months has suddenly become a huge leap of faith.
You see, our summer has not gone the way we planned. My super healthy 14-year-old has battled two serious bacterial infections. A week ago, I would have told you she wasn't going on this trip. Her doctors weren't convinced that leaving the country -- without a parent -- was a good idea. I was definitely convinced it was a bad idea.
What was once a trip that caused me just minor concern has become a huge leap of faith for me. I'd be lying if I told you there wasn't a rock in the pit of my stomach as I think about putting her on the plane tomorrow morning. My biggest worry is that she'll get sick again, and she'll be in a foreign country where there's not much I can do about it. I trust the people she's going with. I know that there's medical evacuation insurance in place. I know that they have access to decent medical care. But it's still going to take a whole lot of faith to hand my daughter her boarding pass, give her a hug and tell her to have a great time.
As I pondered that moment this morning, though, I realized that this whole parenting thing is just one big leap of faith. From the moment we leave our kids with their first babysitter or send them off to school for the first time, we're placing our faith in God that He's got a plan for them and He's going to take care of them.
As my kids get older and they're out of my sphere of influence more and more often, I find that my faith in God's faithfulness has to grow. For them to become the people that God wants them to be, I have to trust that He loves them more than I do. I have to trust that His plan for them is the best one there is. And I have to trust that my kids will find Him and follow His path.
These aren't easy lessons for me to learn. These aren't easy days to be their mom. But I know that just as God will be using this trip to stretch and grow my 14-year-old, He'll be using it to stretch and grow me as well. Because this parenting thing? It takes faith.