When You're Not "Fine"

This space has been empty for a while. Life has been crazy -- some of the good kind of crazy, and it seems like more of the bad kind. I'm kind of to the point where I'm almost afraid to get out of bed in the morning to find out what new crisis is going to erupt.

I'll be honest, it seems like every time I open a door or turn a corner in life lately, there's been something unpleasant behind it. Very little about this life seems easy in this season.

I would love to write a blog post telling you that when we're in the hard season, all we have to do is rely on God and everything will be fine. That sounds great, but it's a lie.

You see, anyone who tells you that things will be "fine" when you're going through a rough season is wrong. Those tough seasons in our lives sometimes leave us in a place that is far from the place we started, the place where everything was "fine." Those tough seasons often mean we lose something -- a loved one, our health, a marriage. When we come out on the other side of a tough season, we are changed. We are different. And we may not be "fine."

Am I saying that God doesn't have everything under control? No. I am saying that God's plan is never for you to be "fine." It is for you to be in a place where you can see Him and share Him. It is for you to be in a place where you have to rely on Him. It is for you to be in a place where others can see Him in you.

But that place may not be easy. It may not be fun. And it most certainly might not be "fine." But one thing you can know for sure is that no matter what that place looks like, no matter where it is, God is there, too.

The truth we need to cling to in the tough seasons is this: God is there. He’s not asking us to go anywhere He’s not willing to go, too.
— Lori Fairchild

That's the truth we need to cling to in the tough seasons -- that God is there. He's not asking us to go anywhere He's not willing to go, too. And though we may shed many tears and even spend time shouting at God, He's there, He loves us, and He's walking with us -- even when we don't think He is.

There is something to learn in this season. There is growing to be done. And when this season passes (and, honestly, I hope it passes soon), I'll be on the other side a different person than I was before this season began. But I don't want to be "fine." I want the lessons I've learned and the person I've become to shine brightly for Jesus. I don't want to be "fine." I want to be His.