I almost lost it right then. After some discussion, we decided she probably slept on it wrong and pinched a nerve. Hopefully, it will feel better as the day goes on.
After that discussion, I went to take my shower. I stood in the shower and cried. It wasn't even 8:30, but it had been a morning. The injured shoulder was the last straw. And I was already tired. Truth be told, I've been tired for a while. Just tired.
And that's what I cried out to God, standing there in the shower with tears running down my face. "God, I'm just so tired."
Tired of refereeing bickering children.
Tired of trying to make everyone happy and succeeding in making no one happy.
Tired of fighting with knees that have decided they don't want to work all that well.
Tired of the mental battle to believe that I'm beautiful when the image I see in the mirror doesn't match the ones on the magazine covers.
Tired of trying to juggle work, family, summer schedules and entitled attitudes.
As I stood there, I was reminded of Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
I looked up and said, "So does that mean I get a nap?"
While I wish that verse meant I get about a 3-day nap, it doesn't. But it does mean that all those burdens weighing down our shoulders, the things making us so tired -- the stressed-out husband, the bickering kids, the struggling self-image -- don't have to be ours to carry alone. Jesus said He would carry them for us if we lay them at His feet.
Too often, I want to carry those things alone. I think I can handle it all and do it all myself. But I can't because it all just makes me tired. And a tired, soul-weary mom and wife doesn't do anyone any good. It's only when I lay all of those burdens at the foot of the cross and accept the rest for my soul that Jesus offers that I have any hope of being enough for anyone -- enough for my kids, enough for my husband, enough for me.
So, won't you join me today. Take advantage of Jesus' promise to give you rest. You might not get a 3-day nap, but when your soul is at rest, you'll find the peace and joy you need to make it through the day.